There is so much to say that I feel like I’m on the verge of bursting. As summer is winding down, I have a lot of changes happening in my life all at once. Some are quite painful and some are exhilaratingly wonderful. I am mourning what has been while embracing hope for things to come. I am a paradox. Aren’t we all?
I received an email this morning from a friend who had some advice for me. He packaged it in beautiful words and they spoke hope and freedom into my heart. I think he’s on a similar journey and we understand each other. I am so blessed to have good friends, and I’m trying hard to be one.
I spoke on the phone with another friend last week and was able to voice a question that has been floating around in my mind lately. Am I done blogging? I asked him if he felt like the time for this had passed. He got me started on this part of my journey and we’ve both backed off from it quite a bit – neither one of us on purpose. It’s hard to put life and thoughts into words for others to read. It can leave you vulnerable to misinterpretation and criticism, not to mention that part of the time I’m forming these posts, I’m still thinking things through and my thoughts haven’t reached solid form when they spill out through my fingertips. Sometimes there is just too much to share and it feels safer to keep it inside.
I’m not done blogging. I’m figuring things out and I’m living in freedom, so I make no promises as to how often I’ll post and no apologies for the periods of time when I need to step away from the blogosphere to learn, process, grow, mourn, or just play for awhile.
The path I’m on is a bit rocky right now. That’s why I changed the picture at the top of the page. It was taken 4 weeks ago up on the Continental Divide by one of the girls who was here participating in our summer program for SEVENS. It’s a good reminder to me that rocky paths can lead me to and through beautiful places. 🙂
I leave you today with an old video of one of my new favorite singers, Francesca Battistelli. I love the chorus of this song! It’s what I’m doing…where I’m living…what I’m traversing…who I am trying to be…
I got a couple dents in my fender, got a couple rips in my jeans
Trying to fit the pieces together but perfection is my enemy
On my own I’m so clumsy, but on your shoulders I can see
I’m free to be me
WOW!! We need to talk!! I don’t want to leave my number on this public of a forum, but you know Kev’s…Have you read my blog? I know you have other good friends who you know and who know you…but I have JUST walked all of this…it is SO worth it on the other side. It is rocky…a little scary. I LOVED your posts about getting to know Jesus in a new and better way (I commented). That gets a little intense too. If you want to talk PLEASE let me know. Like I said before, you guys were so very instrumental in getting this process started with me…so if I can help at all…I would feel like I have come full circle in a way. It is all about the freedom…it is wonderful…and SO beautiful…so restful. It is worth the rocks!! 🙂
God Speed Sister!! ❤
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Great song. I love that you are free to blog when you can and are able. We miss you when you aren’t blogging but take care of yourself first. Be true to what God is calling you to do and the rest will fall into place. ((((h))))
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I will be sad not to see so much from you, but you need to organize your time in God’s fashion regardless of anyone’s opinion.
Don’t forget that I am willing and able to help with Zenith, and other stuff when you come this way.
Love you!
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I empathize with what you are writing about. Transitions can be tough. I hope you stay blogging, I enjoy your writing. May this school year be one of great growth and great learning for your family.
Many blessings!
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It’s like you’re my sista from anotha motha.
Ya know?!
-Jennifer-
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Hi! I was surfing and found your blog post… nice! I love your blog. 🙂 Cheers! Sandra. R.
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Sign: wdpad Hello!!! exgaf and 4086xetqywqpwr and 3953 : I love your blog. 🙂 I just came across your blog.
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