Some days on my “Yes” path to God I literally feel lost. I am trying to do my best to keep the faith and encourage those around me to do so as well. I know there are days when I am a poor example to those around me, and I fall short of God’s plan for me. It’s those days I try to cling to his grace and mercy and love. When was the last time you felt yourself clinging? It doesn’t sound like fun, does it? It’s not. It stinks.
Today I find myself clinging. I have had some pretty emotional dreams the last few nights and I have found myself asking, “God is this from you? Are you trying to tell me something? Or is this the enemy? Is he the one twisting and disturbing my sleep?” I’ve been dreaming so vividly, in color, and not only remembering my dream when I wake up, but still dealing with the emotions that accompany the dreams hours after my day has begun. I’ve been awake now for about 7 hours and my emotions are effecting everything I do, everything I say, and everything I touch.
I got my feelings hurt at church this morning and tried to pass it off as part of this dream/emotion stuff. The more I talked it through with Benny the more clear it became that it was something separate and I needed to talk to my friend about it, which I’m going to do in a little while. I mentioned to another friend that my emotions were bubbling just below the surface today and said (and I can’t believe I said this) that I didn’t even have my period – like that is the only time I get emotional about anything. Yeah…Right! She laughed and asked if I could be pregnant and I gave her my old line about that being next to impossible and that there had better be a star over Bethlehem if I ever get that news.
Back to the dream stuff. I once had a dream that Benny did something (don’t remember what now) and he made me so mad that I punched him in the jaw…in my sleep. Really. I’ve also had dreams that I was so mad and frustrated with him that I couldn’t look at him or talk to him when I woke up – and he hadn’t actually done anything wrong. Poor guy. 😉 Then there are the dreams about something horrible happening to my children and I can’t save them. When that happens I have to get out of bed and walk down to their rooms to check on them and make sure they’re still breathing. That was the night before last. My dreams lastnight were different than that.
If I chose to, I could still recall to you very vivid details about my dreams. In this case, I think God has given me the ability to interpret what happened, where, and why. Now I just have to deal with the emotions that go along with that and I’m asking how and when. Is it coincidence that we’re working on that right now in Max’s Reading lessons? (What, where, when, why, and how) How do you deal with an emotion you didn’t realize your subconscious was working on? Do you wait and see if your subconscious figures it out? Do you help it along somehow through prayer, meditation (being still and listening to God), and talking it out with friends? That’s how I tend to deal with everything else. I don’t know. I’ve been thinking about asking God for the gift of interpreting dreams. Can we just ask God for gifts like that? Would He give me another gift if I haven’t done all that well with one He already gave me? Those are my questions today…
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I don’t know what God will do for you about interpreting your dreams. But ask God for any gift you think you will find helpful. He is wanting you to ask, to seek and to knock. The answer may be ‘no’ or ‘not yet’, but it could also be ‘yes’. You just have to ask to find out. Maybe the interpretation is the journey that you are supposed to take.
I usually don’t have vivid dreams. When those come, I work toward their meaning too. But if I don’t rest in my sleep, but fight in my dreams, I feel run down, and emotional the next day(s).
You have good people around you. Listen to them. 🙂
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Hi Niki: I’m with Chelf, it is definitely worth asking. I myself struggle with discerning if something is from God or something else.
It is interesting that you posted this. I don’t usually have dreams that I can remember, but over the last several weeks, I’ve been dreaming and remembering bits and pieces of them. Maybe it’s this new “lifestyle change” we’re on;-) Anyway I definitely think dreams have residual effects, where something subconscious touches the conscious and we can’t quite figure out the connection. I’ll pray for you to get some peaceful sleep!
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Well, Niki, I’m no good at all at interpreting dreams. I know what my wife’s FIL would have said, “Ham! You gotta’ stop eating ham before bedtime. It’ll give you bad dreams.”
Blessings to you and yours,
-bill
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Is all that coffee going to your brain?! LOL
Something my folks taught me is the worst that can happen when you ask something is that the person (or God in this case) could say “No.” I’d ask, but I’d also put the most weight on asking God to be faithful to work out his purposes in your life. I don’t mean to demean the potential significance of all this, but it could just be stress, bad mexican food, or maybe too much coffee. It could be God, but just be patient with it while it works out. He’ll reveal it to you in His time.
It used to happen more often, but Jen would dream that I abandoned her or did something that hurt her feelings really badly. It took her 10 minutes after waking up one time to even talk to me! She also has dreams that she punches me or hurts me, sometimes.
As Ed on “Ed, Edd, ‘n Eddy” would say, “You are not alone, my friend. I dream of pipes, too.”
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I do the same thing!!! My dreams are SO vivid that sometimes, weeks later, I’m confused if something I’m remembering REALLY happened in real life, or just a past dream! The nightmare ones are the worst! I really feel for you! I carry that emotional stuff all day too. My husband always urges me to let it go, but what if it IS from God? He used dreams in the Bible – He can use them now. I guess my rule is – how is this dream making me feel & why? It’s worth a little introspection. Sometimes I DO feel that it’s God trying to send me a message. Other times I know it’s just my brain throwing out the trash. I once thought of starting a dream blog – just to post all the junk I dream about, but it’d probably need to be censored!!!!!
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Been there….oh, *sigh* I have so been there.
Now, they say sometimes a cigar is just a cigar, and there is a time and place for that. Usually if your brain is plaguing you in your sleep repeatedly like this, somethin’s up.
Go ahead and ask for that ability, Niki, God might just surprise you, He usually does me.
(hugs) from your lurker friend up North
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You don’t have the have the gift of interpreting dreams… but you can certianly ask Him to reveal to you what the dreams you are having mean.
How are you doing now?
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