Sometimes I Write

How are you doing this morning, Niki?
Great! Much better than last week!
Yeah? Your face is shining bright today.
Glad things are going better for you.

It’s little snippets of conversation like this that bless my mornings at Dr. Zack’s. Last week our conversation was good too, but very different. After a hurried morning where things hadn’t gone well, I cried for half of the 30 minute drive to his office. I called along the way to let them know I was running late but I’d be there. Danton, the exuberant office manager, is always Mr. Sunshine. When he heard my voice he gently said, “Take your time Niki, we’ll see you when you get here”.

When I arrived the kids went right to the toy area so I could do my stretching exercises. I was thankful the office was almost empty because I was feeling self-conscious about my red eyes and swollen lips. (I’ve never been a pretty crier!) Dr. Zack stood there and talked to me while I stretched. I told him that it was hard having Benny gone for the week and that I felt satan had taken the opportunity to try to conquer while we were divided. I told him I just didn’t know how I had gotten to that point of discouragement and that I wasn’t sure what to do. He said, “I know someone who does”. I told him that I had already been talking to HIM the whole way there, and that I had heard a song that had started changing my heart right before we had pulled into his parking lot. It was Matthew West’s song, “History”. I also thought of a Carman song I had heard in high school. One of the lines was, “When satan reminds you of your past, remind him of his future”. But that’s a lot easier said than done when you’re knee deep in despair.

While I was being adjusted, Dr. Zack continued to encourage me. He asked me if maybe I could relate to David a bit. King David was open with his discouragement and feelings of despair, crying out to God to save him from his enemies and himself. But the last few verses of a psalm, would once again be praising God for being God and all that He is. I told him I definitely could relate. He also reminded me that I wouldn’t be a target if I wasn’t doing something right and furthering the Kingdom. Good point. This man who is helping me heal my body, also helps me heal my heart. How thankful I am to God for putting His people in my path right when I need them. People who know just what to say when I need to hear something, and also people who need to hear me say something God wants them to hear. Community. I love it!

HISTORY
By Matthew West

It’s been a bad day – You’ve been looking back – And all you can see is everything you wish you could take back – All your mistakes – A world of regrets – All of those moments you would rather forget – I know it’s hard to believe – Let me refresh your memory

Chorus
Yesterday is history and history is miles away – So, leave it all behind you – But let it always remind you of the day – The day that love made history

You know you can’t stay right where you fell – The hardest part is forgiving yourself – But let’s take a walk into today – And don’t let your past get in the way

Would you believe that you are history in the making, in the making? Every choice that you are making – Every step that you are taking – Every chain that you are breaking – History is in the making – Every word that you are saying – Every prayer that you are praying – Every chain that you are breaking – History is in the making – History is in the making – History is in the making