I didn’t even get dressed today. My pajamas are way cute, but I’m so glad that noone came to the door before Benny got home tonight. It’s 8:50 p.m. and I’ve been blogging for two hours. I just spent a week with a sick family including myself. I’m thankful my 6 year old never got “it”. My 2 year old still isn’t back to normal. My body aches from my workout lastnight, but it’s a good ache I guess. I can deadlift 225 lbs. (Thank you very much!)
I had a crappy day. My kids didn’t listen to me. I yelled too much. I got the house cleaned but you’d never know it now. I had a plan and didn’t even begin to follow it. My inlaws are coming this weekend and I’m nervous about their reaction to my tattoo. Me, bold, brazen Niki who isn’t afraid of anyone. They have NEVER acknowledged Benny’s, so I know it’s an issue. The only problem is that I’m not quite past the scabby stage yet and can’t wear socks until I am – so there’s no hiding it. I love it, but I know they aren’t comfortable with things like that. I guess I just won’t mention it and leave it at that. I know they won’t mention it so I’m probably worrying for nothing.
I hate being in a funk. I thought about some tough things in my life today and it brought back some hard memories for me. I’m fine, I’m just having one of those emotional rollercoaster kind of days. For the first time ever, reading other people’s blogs hasn’t lifted my spirits. The tragedy and sadness I read about makes me even sadder. I’m still thankful for those bloggers though. They have hearts of gold!
O.K. To battle the funk, here are 5 things I’m thankful for:
1. Benny loves me!
2. I’m physically stronger than I thought I was.
3. Even on my funky days like today, I know God loves me and so do my kids even though I sometimes yell.
4. I’ve lost 6 lbs. in 3 weeks. Not bad!
5. My brother just called and I told him about the inlaw thing. He reminded me that I’m a grown up now and responsible for my own decisions. He also reminded me that Benny got his ears pierced and his parents are going to be too busy staring at his ears to notice my tattoo. LOL Thank God for brothers! 😉
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I’ve stayed in my PJ’s all day too. Just think of it as “Laundry Conservation”. And… don’t sweat the inlaws vs. the tattoo. Get yourself a gold tooth and they’ll forget all about that ink.
*Smiles* Hope tomorrow is better for you. Lifting my head off the pillow in the morning is all the dead weight I can handle!
-Jennifer-
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Sweet Niki! Hope you’re doing better today. Wow! 225 lbs!! That’d be like lifting all my kids and my dog together. AUGGH. I’ve had several crappy days. Want to come for that tea and let our kids play in the street?
My plan has gone out the window, and I have told each and every one of my children they are on their own for school since they won’t listen to me anyway.
Thanks for ending on a good note. I will pray for your visit with your inlaws. Thought your brother’s advice was right on! You are a grown up.
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I was glad to read #5. That is exactly what I was thinking. . . “Do they know about Benny’s ear holes?”
Don’t worry, they will keep their eyes off your foot.
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Thanks for your honesty, sister. Some days are just not as good as others, but we still have such a joy because of Christ and because of the blessings we have. That’s awesome that you can lift that much!!! And keep up with the working out…I’m a little sore myself today, but it’s so worth it! We’ve got so much to catch up on…Love you guys!
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