Sometimes I Write

Because of Benny’s Texas roadtrip, the people who have pledged support, and those who have already been part of our support team, it looks like we have reached our financial support raising goal! God is so amazing! This has been a long hard road so far, but things have sort of fallen into place anyway. We have had many discouragers and cheerleaders along the way, so I am so excited to be able to tell everyone that we did it! God did it! We are so blessed.

We have learned so much about depending on God for everything. We know the difference between what we want and what we need, and have experienced both. We have good friends who have believed in us and spurred us on during the moments we questioned our calling. We have even been blessed through the people who thought we were crazy to do this, worried about us, or told us there’s no way we could raise the amount we wanted to. You see we took the leap of faith God called us to take and He has blessed us over and over again. It hasn’t just been OUR faith growing, but the faith of everyone around us as they watch the support being pledged and start to come in from around the country. They have watched our prayers being answered. We have so many new partners in our ministry that I am overwhelmed with joy and honestly, relief.

Our financial prayers are being answered by God through so many of you, but my prayer requests will not stop. Satan knows what he’s doing and some of my thoughts yesterday were, “Well, we’re going to be taken care of for the next year, but come next Fall we have to do this all over again”, and “What if someone changes their mind and decides to pull their support?”, and “What if we have an emergency? Will we have enough?”. Can you believe my nerve? Why on earth would God move us here to learn how to start this ministry, take care of all the details for us BEFORE our official start date, then when it came time to fly on our own, drop us on our faces? Why would he provide for our basic needs and leave us alone during an emergency? Where’s my faith? Who am I putting my trust in? The people sending money, or the one who REALLY owns it all? So I ask for forgiveness and echo the plight in Mark 9:

Jesus is asked to heal a boy possessed by demons. The disciples have tried to cast the demons out, but have failed. Jesus asks the father of the boy how long this has been happening and the father gives him the details then ends with,

“Have mercy on us and help us. Do something if you can.” “What do you mean, ‘if I can’?” Jesus asked. “Anything is possible if a person believes.” The father instantly replied, “I do believe, but help me not to doubt!” (NLT)

The story ends with the disciples questioning Jesus about their failure at casting out demons. Jesus tells them that this kind of evil spirit can be cast out only by prayer.

So I ask you to join me in thanksgiving for God providing what we need, and ask for your continued prayers for our ministry and specifically for strength and faith on the days I believe, but doubt. I’m grateful for your presence in my life, and your shared faith. I am humbled by what God has done in my life in the short time I’ve been blogging, and thankful for the opportunity to share it with you! God Bless Us All!